The Killer First Trimester

OK, so I just need to get this off my chest. Please don't take any of the following as me being ungrateful for this tiny blessing I'm carrying because that is NOT the case. I'm just being Honest. If you have a weak stomach or don't want to really know about the gruesome details of pregnancy than read no further. I warned you..... :) But, you're curious, aren't you..... :)
Also, another disclaimer....everyone is different and everyone has a different experience, this is just mine. I envy those that have it easy!
I decided I would document this just in case I forget about how I felt and do something crazy like go for 4 kids or something! J/K, Erin!! :) I want to try to remain positive, but I just need to vent, hopefully this once......no promises though, I am moody!
I'm also documenting for my future book, I'm going to write. Erin and I decided we'd go in together, as my dear friend who is pregnant with #4, has also been sick with ALL of hers! It MUST be worth it, if she keeps going back for more every other year! :)

So, yes, your mom tells you a little, and in my case, my mom let me know she puked for 9 months, but you still don't REALLY get it! Until it's YOU!! Oh, how good I felt those first couple weeks, when we had just found out we were pregnant. We were on cloud nine, and I felt great! Little did I know, how that would change in 2 short weeks! Yes, by week 6, I was visiting the toilet 6-8 times a day!! You name it, it didn't stay down! I was short of saying I was dying. I thought one day as I was lying on the bathroom floor in tears, that I truly might die RIGHT there! Whoever named it "Morning Sickness" was sorely mistaken! Mine didn't discriminate. From the moment my feet hit the floor until the moment I was getting ready for bed, I hugged the porcelain! WOW!
I did this for about 3-4 days before calling the doctor. She recommended I take B6 supplements and Unisom sleeptabs at night. OK, I'll try it! Well, the Unisom sure did help with sleeping, and the B6, well.......it made me feel better, thinking it might work, but really didn't!
I let another week and half go by. I can do this! Women do this all the time! I can power through. Meanwhile, I'm not eating much of ANYTHING! NOTHING sounds good, when you've seen it all in reverse, it really discourages you from eating it again. I ate a lot of peanut butter toast-for protein, banana's, apple sauce, and noodles. Yep, that pretty much was my diet for a month! Or, and the occasional french fries!
So came my breaking point........!!! I was weak, I was teary, I was hungry, and I was thirsty. When you throw up water, what do you do??? I had a doctor's appt on Tues and it was Monday. I couldn't wait! I called and asked for STRONGER meds! This B6 isn't cutting it, and you might have to hospitalize me soon for dehydration if something doesn't give!
Hallelujah!! Hallelujah!!! They gave me a prescription for Zofran! I was immediately on my way to CVS to pick it up! I heard it works! I was sooo excited! Relief was on the way!
I popped that Puppy and guess what! Dinner stayed put! YES! I'm on my way to bliss!
Not soo fast there cowgirl....... :( Take a look at the side effects that come with this miracle pill.....
Yep! If it's not one thing it's another, right?
So, now, I'm able to keep some food in my stomach, although, I still have little to no appetite. And aside from the now, 9lb weight loss, things are good.
Until my friends Constipation and Migraine came to play! Yep! Try not pooping for almost 2 weeks! Ouch! And the Migraines liked to come on in the evenings. Lovely side effects, but hey, I was holding down my food and could actually leave the house without fear, so I was taking it!
I won't go into details about those side effects, but lets just say, it's not comfortable, and Nothing really works for me.
I was doing much better, still little energy, but holding down most meals. I'd have the occasional "moment" or 2 a day, but much better than before.
I think I started becoming immune to the meds, the hormones around 10 weeks were raging, and even on the pills every 6 hours, I started getting sick again! Boo! Again, not as bad as the initial times, so I was going with it.
I learned taking trips aren't too fun! One, you aren't in your home, with your toilet, and you get really embarrassed. No one really understands how you are feeling, and for me, I was too emotional to tell them, without crying! Also, you feel bad bc everyone seems to be worried about you and you don't want to ruin anyone else's good time. My poor husband would just look at me after one of my trips to the bathroom and I'd break down in tears! I JUST wanted to feel good, feel normal, enjoy my meal, you name it. Yes, I threw MANY pity parties! But constantly reminded myself, how I shouldn't, that so many women would die to be in my shoes, would love to know what throwing up from raging hormones felt like. And I didn't/don't take that for granted! But I don't care who you are, if you were throwing up the sip of water you just drank for the 8th time that day for the 12th day in a row, you'd be feeling pretty pitiful too! I promise.
I have now thrown up in my toilet, in friends' toilets, in my MIL house, in a bag in the car, in a plastic cup in the car, in the parking lot of a rest stop, and in restaurants!! UURGGHH! Frustrating! The restaurant last weekend was my icing on my cake! ALL I wanted was mashed potatoes and green beans! We were on the road and decided to look for a Cracker Barrel, Piccadilly, or something, so I could get it. Jeff gets excited when I actually say I want to eat and what I want, so he was on a mission. The only thing we found close was a Golden Corral. I hadn't been to one in ages, and let me tell you! The people watching was Fabulous and Priceless!! I got my mashed potatoes and my green beans and was a happy camper! Until....my stomach started rumbling....yep!! Before we could even walk out of the place, I was in the bathroom losing everything I had just eaten!! Talk about frustrating! It didn't even have time to hit my stomach! :(
Anyway, the first trimester for me has been HE-double hockey sticks!!(My grandma used to say that, hehe) I'm 14 weeks and hoping it will come to an end soon! If I am in the lucky 2-3% like my mom and sister that gets it all 9 months......you might find me in a padded room, before this baby arrives. :)
My vent session is over now! If you have any questions/concerns please contact me. Otherwise you will find me in your closest restroom! ;)
HeHe, Have a Great weekend Everybody! I get to see my friend Mags, go out to eat 2 nights(for the first time in a LONG time) in a row(wish me luck), and watch some Auburn Football!!

***for any of you still reading that might be curious about the Raccoon.....last night, we did hear the trap shut, so today the guy came by to check it. It was shut, but nothing in it. Either the Coon is a big one, and hit the top of the cage, the door shut and it was able to back out, or it was something smaller that hit the trap and set it off. Regardless, we now have 4 more traps up there, and this booger is Going DOWN!!!